Flaws

1. I tend to shut myself up and my anger/rage builds up to the point I'm not productive: I think the reason is... how can I blame someone when I clearly I could do something worse but i try to make your emotions understand that...
2. I have the ability to hyperfocus but I can't command it: It depends on music, purely electronic and siwth some cyclic patterns and coding. Other activities do nothing.
3. I enjoy people in very, very short amounts of time: I get bored. It's not people's fault but rather that I'm poorly made.
4. I'm way too idealistic: I find impossible things very appealing so I aim to that.
5. I hate myself: Most of the time my stupidity doesn't pay off so...
6. I love myself too much: But when I'm not hating myself, I'm very happy with myself.
7. I think I'm a narcisist but very functional one: This mostly an insight that I cannot see but I trust the people who pointed it out.
8. I rarely ask for help: It's not about pride. I just like impossible things and I get obsessed with them that I forgot about asking for help.
9. I tend to be the stand up guy: but I think it's because deep down I want to be the hero.
10. I'm not sure about anything: I blame my training in physics.
11. I'm not smart, not even average: I have reference from smart people and I know how average I am.
12. I usually don't give myself credit: I think it's because I have a tendency to go against authorities.
13. I'm very selfish: After 30 yrs on this planet, I have concluded it's the only way, for me, to cope with reality.
14. I'm very pessimistic: My pessimism is the fuel of my optimism.
15. I get bored a lot: This most likely is a brain issue.
16. I need to be busy: Probably an existential one.
17. I care how I dress: Well, I do. I enjoy fashion as an art.
18. I care how I look: When you are not handsom, all you have is artificial aesthetics.